Thursday, August 27, 2009

La Vita e Bela

Life is beautiful! I feel like such a slacker lately! Seriously, we've been so busy, I have barely been able to keep my head above water. But I am loving every minute of it! I feel like my last post was SOOOO negative, that I need to make this one super positive so I don't force anyone to put a bullet in their brain! I had a lot of drama going on for a while, and while still ever-present, the drama is winding down. And I could not be happier. (well, maybe a little, but I will save that for later...) ;)
I am back in my house which adds a little bit of stress to my life, but it's mostly good stress. I love my house. My kiddos are so happy to see their toys that have been in storage for a year! You should see them run around the house. It does my heart good to be at home with them, and get them settled. We have been in limbo for waaaayyy too long, and now we are finally settling back into "normal", whatever that means. ;)
I am having a ton of fun, being me, relearning what that means and who I am. I have a new found hope, and belief that there are good people out there. I am learning to trust, and building friendships and just enjoying life in general!
I am learning that what I am doing is extremely hard, but I can do it. I can do hard things with a little help from You Know Who. Every day I fail a little, but I also succeed a little. I have days where I feel like I can't do it, but then I just do. And I keep on doing. I am tired, a lot. But I also smile and laugh like I haven't in years.
Thank you to all the amazing friends and family who have supported me and listened and loved me through all of this. I know I could not have done it on my own. I have never felt more loved, just knowing that I had people I could trust who were there when/if I needed them. Even if I didn't always rely on anyone, it is a tremendous comfort to know that safety net is there to catch you if you fall.
I will probably fall on my face a million more times, but I will smile and get back up and learn from it.
So I guess this is me, officially re-joining the blogging world. I guess I felt like I didn't have all the normal happy stuff to post, so I only posted when I needed to vent. But hopefully now I will be able to post the cute, funny, sweet things my kids say and do, and the fun times we have.